love can be so insecure

Love can be so insecure

At this point you are so confident that she will love you to death, but you know what? Her heart is currently falling for someone else.

No matter how good is that guy, how loyal he is, how considerate and so on

but still,

I will still stand at her side, just because she is my friend.

Sigh, it seems that there is no true and loyal love among my close friends.

All have the tendency to cheat and betray their men.

Will I be one of them?

I wonder.

to skyler

Skyler is going to Liverpool tomorrow, to further his studies in master.

Went out with him for the past 2 days, go yam cha and accompany him to do his last shopping.

Man, how embarrassed. He actually wanna buy 5 packs of contraceptive pills for his friend at uk. Because at uk if you need to buy contraceptive pills, you need permission from doctor to ensure that you are healthy enough to consume these pills. But in Malaysia, you can just buy from any pharmacies.

So shy, I worried that the pharmacist may think that he buy the pills for me. Okay la.. I didn’t get any strange look from pharmacist. Damn!! I am so conservative.

Actually, I don’t really dare to buy pad myself either. I used to feel so embarrassed.. but now better la. I remembered last time there’s few guys looking at the pads on my hand and laugh. Damn!! I was like, what? Never see girl buy pads before ka? Skyler said I should just throw those pads to them and shout.. Your mother never uses pads ah!! See what see!!!

Opps.. way out of topic. Back to skyler.. ahh.. then I will less one friend in Malaysia. Mm.. But I won’t miss him and vice versa. Got msn what, no need miss. Just that I don’t know I can go out yam cha with who else ady…

Hope you will enjoy your studies there, study hard and play hard..

Take as many photos as possible and try to tackle any girls at there la.. wahhhaha



p/s: since you read so many books, I will at least try to read some of the books that you had strongly recommend.

hate u and u

Sometimes

I hate u and u

Damn
Don leaves the problem for us to solve

It’s your responsibility too!!

Don’t just assign us what to do and walk away

Damn it

I’m tired with all these shits

curse curse curse

I’ve been cursing a lot.

Especially when I’m driving.

Damn, don’t you feel like you wanna tear their heads off when somebody comes out in no where, cut line, driving so near behind your car, drive too slow, drive WAY too fast..

I really curse a lot when I’m driving.. mahai.. diu.. niama..

Haha.. Sure some people will say..

o my god!! Why are you saying bad words!! Thought you are this nice polite girl…

Anyway, got my result today.. Should I be happy? or not? I don’t know.. I’m just getting exhausted and bored with my studies.

1 more year to go, 1 more year at that shit place, 1 more year with those strangers and I can say bye bye to you all.. Damn!! I know my life will get even more boring at that place.

Please, let me have some topics with those strangers.

Let me understand their emotionless jokes.

Hope my brain waves work well with theirs.

I beg you all (strangers) for new chemistry

Some tiny little sparks between us.

i've seen ghost before

Do you believe in supernatural? I do, I believe there is another world hiding somewhere.

That’s the reason why some could see ghosts, some can’t. Depend on his or her luck.

I’m going to tell you all a true story of mine. Happens many years back when I was only 8 years old, standard 2. No kidding!!! Its’ real!!!

Okay, I’m gonna make things short. Here comes.

I still remember it was midnight. Everyone slept ady, including me...i sleep while my face facing the ceiling. Then I don’t know what happen, I suddenly open my eyes. Like you see ghost story, the ghost suddenly open their eyes widely that kind.

I saw him. Yes, he is right in front of me. I was lying on the bed there while he was situated at headboard 床头there. Is it call headboard, not sure..

I think he was touching my forehead for quite a while ady, seriously!!!

I still remember exactly how he looks like. He was white in colour, not pale, but white paper that kind of white. His body structure is no difference with human. Got eyes, mouth, etc. oo.. He is bald, no hair at all. I couldn’t remember whether he got any eyebrows or eye lashes.. And his tongue was really red in colour.

You know why I can see his tongue???

Because when I open my eyes, when we see each other eyes to eyes.. He got shocked!!! He got shocked till he open his mouth widely.. a big O..mmm.. maybe he didn’t expect me to open my eyes without any sign and movement..

But the strange thing is, I am not scare at all!! I turned aside and try to wake my grandma up. I say someone is here.. my grandma wakes up after maybe few seconds, and when I look back at his side. He’s gone!! I am very sure he is not a thief, because there is no sound of someone running away.

Since he is gone, then I continue my sleep.. hahaha…

The next day onwards, I told my family that I saw ghost. No one believes me. I guess no one believes a 8 years old kid right? My aunt said I was just dreaming. My grandma started to say how she dreamt of Kuan Yin, how pretty is she in a white dress… I told my friends, they just got scare..

Haha.. and when time past, I stop telling people about this. I scare that what if he is my grand father or my ancestor.

If I keep telling people that I saw him, what if those hell people found out that he comes to our world. I worried that he will get some punishment and being torture at hell. That would be my fault, isn’t it? Besides, it doesn’t feels right if other people keep saying that it was nothing but a dream.

Well. Yesterday I read an article about this type of ghost. Touch your forehead while you were sleeping that kind. They say it is call headboard grandma (床头婆婆) and headboard grandpa (床头公公). They are these some kind of god that works to protect kids, from a baby till he or she reaches 16 years old.

But I can ensure you that my family didn’t pray to these gods, because you need to have some simple ceremonies in order to invite them to come into your house. I just double confirm with my grandma, she said she never invite.

So, who is he anyway??

and why me??

我没有在投诉！！！！！

今天有人生气了！！！

我感觉到有一点儿无辜，

原来我所说的东西，

对你而言，

我是在投诉

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今早我又打羽毛球，

提不起劲儿！！

打到好想睡觉噢。。。

好闷。。

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早上7点半起身，

打完球，吃个早餐，

回家再睡觉！！

3点多起身。。

我好懒噢！！！！

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晚上会去吃韩国餐，

希望一切顺利。。

不管了！！

没钱也要吃好的！！！

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回来后我和妹妹会做饼干！！！

她说做到半夜！！

我好想做gingerbread man..

他们很可爱。。

外面一个卖rm2..

还是断手断脚的

可是我没有gingerbread man的模型

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