cancer, can you please go away??

What is it to feel like if you know you will die anytime?

What is it to feel like if you know you can’t cure anymore?

What is it to feel like if god gives you hope, but then take it away?

What is it to feel like if you know you will never have a future?

What is it to feel like when counting down the days to go?

Desperate

Heartbreaking

Gloomy

Fearless

Shed tears

Blame

One friend of mine is having cancer, leukemia. It was still in the first stage when he was diagnosed with leukemia. After went through chemotherapy that last for one year, he seems much better. Moreover, he got a suitable bone marrow from his youngest sister.

When we thought everything will end up well in the end, then suddenly his cancer come back. Not even 6 months. Its like 2 or 3 months.

Doctor mentioned that if he does any treatment or even if he gives up, the result would still be the same.

He will die.

Treatment = few weeks of life
No treatment = few days of life

He thought of getting bone marrow from his another sister, but doctor said he will then has 3 different bone marrows in his body, percentage to recover will be even lower.

What to do? He is now hoping that Chinese medical can save his life. Or at least extend his life.

Sad, but what to do? God gives him and us a hope, but He took it away so quickly and cruelly.

This is life. Life can be mean.


p/s: It just break my heart every time I listen to this song.

My Chemical Romance

Cancer

Turn away,

If you could get me a drink

Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded

Call my aunt Marie

Help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favorite colors,

My sisters and my brothers, still,

I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

Now turn away,

'Cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony,

Know that I will never marry,

Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo

But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living

And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)

Goodbye today (goodbye today)

I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you