Life as if...

It feels nice to read back my earlier posts. Feeling nostalgic I shall say. How I've utilized my uni life, the ways I've enjoyed my life, how I've spent most of my time with ry, how lonely and miserable I was during those gloomy unbearable moment.

I started to blog because I can never write in a book. I always wanted to have my own diaries. I’ve tried for so many years, and the max I wrote was 10+ pages only. By now, I have no idea where the hell are those so called diaries. And guess what, I've started blogging since mid 2008, not much posts like others but it’s an excellent progress for me.

It’s like keeping a record of my own life, things that are special to me, my weirdest thoughts and dreams and bla bla. But of course I cant really write everything in the blog since it can be read by anyone. The drawback is that, I feel vulnerable as people know so much about me through my blog whilst I knew so little about them. I felt so defenseless as it is like people can know what I’m thinking and they will be able to predict my next move.

unrelated photo:

RY's Holland trip if i'm not mistaken

I’ve come to a stage where I realized that life aint as easy as I thought it will be. And I have learnt not to be afraid of death. It's more like i can now view death from a different perspective. Everyone dies eventually and it is just the matter of time and how. Yes, being apart forever is cruel enough, but someday we will meet again right? Just, appreciate everything you have and feel blessed. Don’t take things for granted as they might slip away silently from your fingertips without you even knowing it.

Life is cruel sometimes, face it, process it and finally overcome it.

Peace..