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Sometimes I tend to think that she has little hatred toward me. I may not be as neat and coordinate as them. I was born with it, I’m messy and disorganized. My things are always messed up. I always couldn’t find my things and my table is covered with all kinds of stuff. When I studied last time, first thing I do was spread all my notes and books over the table. Sigh, does she have to shout with her pissed off face?

I feel so depress these few days. I cried almost every night when my emo strike. There are so many things in my mind right now. Things that have been bothered me for months. I think it is time to clear things up.

Today I wake up I the whole house smell like shit. Something like blood, sweat and rubbish smell. I feel like throwing up instead. Finally, I know where’s the smell came from. From the fridge, all kinds of raw bloody chicken, bone, smelly rice, fish inside the fridge. Gosh, I need to have a normal life.. Waking up smelling dead fish and bloody chicken is not the dream of my life!!!

I’m going to see him soon. But I haven’t feel the happiness within me. I am being surrounded by depression.