cancer, can you please go away??

What is it to feel like if you know you will die anytime?

What is it to feel like if you know you can’t cure anymore?

What is it to feel like if god gives you hope, but then take it away?

What is it to feel like if you know you will never have a future?

What is it to feel like when counting down the days to go?

Desperate

Heartbreaking

Gloomy

Fearless

Shed tears

Blame

One friend of mine is having cancer, leukemia. It was still in the first stage when he was diagnosed with leukemia. After went through chemotherapy that last for one year, he seems much better. Moreover, he got a suitable bone marrow from his youngest sister.

When we thought everything will end up well in the end, then suddenly his cancer come back. Not even 6 months. Its like 2 or 3 months.

Doctor mentioned that if he does any treatment or even if he gives up, the result would still be the same.

He will die.

Treatment = few weeks of life
No treatment = few days of life

He thought of getting bone marrow from his another sister, but doctor said he will then has 3 different bone marrows in his body, percentage to recover will be even lower.

What to do? He is now hoping that Chinese medical can save his life. Or at least extend his life.

Sad, but what to do? God gives him and us a hope, but He took it away so quickly and cruelly.

This is life. Life can be mean.


p/s: It just break my heart every time I listen to this song.

My Chemical Romance

Cancer

Turn away,

If you could get me a drink

Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded

Call my aunt Marie

Help her gather all my things

And bury me in all my favorite colors,

My sisters and my brothers, still,

I will not kiss you,

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

Now turn away,

'Cause I'm awful just to see

'Cause all my hairs abandoned all my body,

Oh, my agony,

Know that I will never marry,

Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo

But counting down the days to go

It just ain't living

And I just hope you know

That if you say (if you say)

Goodbye today (goodbye today)

I'd ask you to be true (cause I'd ask you to be true)

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

'Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you

red cliff 2

Red cliff 2

Yeah!! This morning went out for movie.. red cliff 2.. the only movie I have been waiting for..

Stunning
Breathtaking
Awesome

Zhu Ge Liang is so smart!! I wonder whether the real person was that clever or not?? I bet his IQ was over 200!!! I like clever guys.. But cannot too nerdy look.. little bit is still acceptable..

Movie was great.. Just I can’t stand this one *&^*&^*& man sitting behind me.. he keep on kicking the back of my chair..

Imagine when you are watching an awesome movie in the cinema, sitting comfortable with a pop corn on hand, then this biatch keep on kicking your chair.. keep on kicking as if he got Parkinson or something.. bluekkk

Hallo uncle.. You think you are still 2 years old ar?? You are like 40 plus okay?? Ooo.. Maybe you got a 2 years old brain eh?? Then I can’t blame you lo hor??

Suddenly I seems like a mean girl… NO.. I’m not!! I’m a good girl.. *ahem* . I shouldn’t have scold people during Chinese New Year. Very sui ah!!

Hhmmm… nevermind.. I didn’t scold.. I just type..

p/s: someone curse so so so soooo much during cny.. ( not me)
Unbelievable, believe it or not..

恭喜发财

Myspace Chinese New year Graphics

Happy chinese new year!!!


Gong Xi FA cai!!!

I wish everyone…

身体健康
万事如意
步步高升
龙马精神
年年有余
恭喜发财

哇。。差不多半夜一点了，我的邻居刚刚在他家门前放鞭炮。。好吵好大声。。我的狗被吓倒了，跑进家里，还在发抖呢！！平时什么过节过日，雷电交加的时候，狗狗都会很难过日子的，都会被吓到不停地发抖。。可怜可怜。。

新的一年，新的希望，新的开始。。。

好，我起来后得要开始做我e-commerce的部落格。不得不做，deadline已经到期了。好一句临时抱佛脚，真适合我。。人家在上个星期已经做完了，而我非要等到最后一秒才做。。

好，很好，非常好，yeah!!


好累，本来应该做功课的，真么写起自己的部落格呢。。

睡觉咯！！ 晚安。。

durex ad--- LOLed

Unrelated: I saw a man with an afro hair today at serdang’s ktm, so outstanding and daring.. Wear skinny jeans some more.. He got all the attention…pheeww..

2. Gv's ahem brought us a new sony tv.. well, not brand new.. At least better than the last one.. the previous tv got a little problem, all the tv programs are in red in colour.. tee hee

3. ry study till crazy ady.. He is talking to himself now.. wahahha

He wears a yellow imu shirt today..
me: why wear yellow?? You are yellow man ar??
Ry: yeah!! I am a Digi man!!
Start singing..
Ry: I will follow you~~~
Follow you where you will go~~~ ( I assume that the lyric is correct)

update* follow you whereever you may go~~~

he is singing again,digi man, and leong san pak, zok ying toi tat sad song

Then, purposely fall and gimme a hug and sing
I will follow you~~~
yellow man is so evil

Ooo.. Saw this ad at facebook.. So funny!! Lol

south park--- ry's version

This is ry’s version in the South Park.

look exactly like the real person

S.T.U.P.I.D

http://www.sp-studio.de/index.htm

Go and create your own version of South Park characters.

Feel free to curse all the way you like.

Where is my version?

I’m suppose to do 1 for myself, but I’m kinda lazy and I couldn’t find a big marathon t shirt in the clothes choosing section. Well, that’s practically what I wear at home, most of the time.


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unrelated:

1. someone told me that I can apply for what Yap scholarship, say what miss chong from what what department asked her to tell me.. mmm… but need to go for an interview, I hope I can get that scholarship. Able to reduce my burden next time, coz I need to pay back all the study loan myself.. hope I can get, hope I can get. Damn it!! i want the scholarship!!! few thousands will help too..

2. cheng hin bought me a present from langkawi.. im so happy..it should be my birthday present.. wahahaha

3. i want to watch red cliff 2, can't wait... red cliff 1 was so so so so so nice!!!

love can be so insecure

Love can be so insecure

At this point you are so confident that she will love you to death, but you know what? Her heart is currently falling for someone else.

No matter how good is that guy, how loyal he is, how considerate and so on

but still,

I will still stand at her side, just because she is my friend.

Sigh, it seems that there is no true and loyal love among my close friends.

All have the tendency to cheat and betray their men.

Will I be one of them?

I wonder.

to skyler

Skyler is going to Liverpool tomorrow, to further his studies in master.

Went out with him for the past 2 days, go yam cha and accompany him to do his last shopping.

Man, how embarrassed. He actually wanna buy 5 packs of contraceptive pills for his friend at uk. Because at uk if you need to buy contraceptive pills, you need permission from doctor to ensure that you are healthy enough to consume these pills. But in Malaysia, you can just buy from any pharmacies.

So shy, I worried that the pharmacist may think that he buy the pills for me. Okay la.. I didn’t get any strange look from pharmacist. Damn!! I am so conservative.

Actually, I don’t really dare to buy pad myself either. I used to feel so embarrassed.. but now better la. I remembered last time there’s few guys looking at the pads on my hand and laugh. Damn!! I was like, what? Never see girl buy pads before ka? Skyler said I should just throw those pads to them and shout.. Your mother never uses pads ah!! See what see!!!

Opps.. way out of topic. Back to skyler.. ahh.. then I will less one friend in Malaysia. Mm.. But I won’t miss him and vice versa. Got msn what, no need miss. Just that I don’t know I can go out yam cha with who else ady…

Hope you will enjoy your studies there, study hard and play hard..

Take as many photos as possible and try to tackle any girls at there la.. wahhhaha



p/s: since you read so many books, I will at least try to read some of the books that you had strongly recommend.

hate u and u

Sometimes

I hate u and u

Damn
Don leaves the problem for us to solve

It’s your responsibility too!!

Don’t just assign us what to do and walk away

Damn it

I’m tired with all these shits

curse curse curse

I’ve been cursing a lot.

Especially when I’m driving.

Damn, don’t you feel like you wanna tear their heads off when somebody comes out in no where, cut line, driving so near behind your car, drive too slow, drive WAY too fast..

I really curse a lot when I’m driving.. mahai.. diu.. niama..

Haha.. Sure some people will say..

o my god!! Why are you saying bad words!! Thought you are this nice polite girl…

Anyway, got my result today.. Should I be happy? or not? I don’t know.. I’m just getting exhausted and bored with my studies.

1 more year to go, 1 more year at that shit place, 1 more year with those strangers and I can say bye bye to you all.. Damn!! I know my life will get even more boring at that place.

Please, let me have some topics with those strangers.

Let me understand their emotionless jokes.

Hope my brain waves work well with theirs.

I beg you all (strangers) for new chemistry

Some tiny little sparks between us.

i've seen ghost before

Do you believe in supernatural? I do, I believe there is another world hiding somewhere.

That’s the reason why some could see ghosts, some can’t. Depend on his or her luck.

I’m going to tell you all a true story of mine. Happens many years back when I was only 8 years old, standard 2. No kidding!!! Its’ real!!!

Okay, I’m gonna make things short. Here comes.

I still remember it was midnight. Everyone slept ady, including me...i sleep while my face facing the ceiling. Then I don’t know what happen, I suddenly open my eyes. Like you see ghost story, the ghost suddenly open their eyes widely that kind.

I saw him. Yes, he is right in front of me. I was lying on the bed there while he was situated at headboard 床头there. Is it call headboard, not sure..

I think he was touching my forehead for quite a while ady, seriously!!!

I still remember exactly how he looks like. He was white in colour, not pale, but white paper that kind of white. His body structure is no difference with human. Got eyes, mouth, etc. oo.. He is bald, no hair at all. I couldn’t remember whether he got any eyebrows or eye lashes.. And his tongue was really red in colour.

You know why I can see his tongue???

Because when I open my eyes, when we see each other eyes to eyes.. He got shocked!!! He got shocked till he open his mouth widely.. a big O..mmm.. maybe he didn’t expect me to open my eyes without any sign and movement..

But the strange thing is, I am not scare at all!! I turned aside and try to wake my grandma up. I say someone is here.. my grandma wakes up after maybe few seconds, and when I look back at his side. He’s gone!! I am very sure he is not a thief, because there is no sound of someone running away.

Since he is gone, then I continue my sleep.. hahaha…

The next day onwards, I told my family that I saw ghost. No one believes me. I guess no one believes a 8 years old kid right? My aunt said I was just dreaming. My grandma started to say how she dreamt of Kuan Yin, how pretty is she in a white dress… I told my friends, they just got scare..

Haha.. and when time past, I stop telling people about this. I scare that what if he is my grand father or my ancestor.

If I keep telling people that I saw him, what if those hell people found out that he comes to our world. I worried that he will get some punishment and being torture at hell. That would be my fault, isn’t it? Besides, it doesn’t feels right if other people keep saying that it was nothing but a dream.

Well. Yesterday I read an article about this type of ghost. Touch your forehead while you were sleeping that kind. They say it is call headboard grandma (床头婆婆) and headboard grandpa (床头公公). They are these some kind of god that works to protect kids, from a baby till he or she reaches 16 years old.

But I can ensure you that my family didn’t pray to these gods, because you need to have some simple ceremonies in order to invite them to come into your house. I just double confirm with my grandma, she said she never invite.

So, who is he anyway??

and why me??

我没有在投诉！！！！！

今天有人生气了！！！

我感觉到有一点儿无辜，

原来我所说的东西，

对你而言，

我是在投诉

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今早我又打羽毛球，

提不起劲儿！！

打到好想睡觉噢。。。

好闷。。

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早上7点半起身，

打完球，吃个早餐，

回家再睡觉！！

3点多起身。。

我好懒噢！！！！

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晚上会去吃韩国餐，

希望一切顺利。。

不管了！！

没钱也要吃好的！！！

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回来后我和妹妹会做饼干！！！

她说做到半夜！！

我好想做gingerbread man..

他们很可爱。。

外面一个卖rm2..

还是断手断脚的

可是我没有gingerbread man的模型

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