生日不开心。。

生日了。。

为什么会那么不开心呢？？

好沮丧的感觉。。这就是蓝吗？？

生日，一个人过的生日。。

一个毫无意义的生日，毫无目标的人生。。

现在的我，是多么的不开心，。。

有人可否知道？我的内心深处有多么不开心吗？？

好奇怪。。我那一天，，竟然对她有反感的感觉。。

这叫厌倦了吗？还是他重来都不了解我。。

还是

我重来救不了解自己所要的一切一切？？

祝我生日快乐

My birthday is just couple days ahead.. what is my dream? have any of my wishes came true?

I almost forgot the date or day of these several months..

grandma

still in midst of finding job.. (i presume)

Friends have been helping a lot in introducing some jobs for me.. i guess they are much more worried than i am.. being at home for almost 3 months and heard no news of me going out to work again..

i think i should find jobs more diligently..

ry's grandma passed away yesterday night, around 8 stg..

i feel sad, it reminds me of my grandma.. indeed, i still miss my grandma very much.. it still hurts when sometime i think about her, about her late years, when everything seems so bad to her.. i still feel guilty for not treating her good enough.. in her last few weeks, i've gone so tired and mad because grandma been waking me up all the midnights i have here in seremban..

grandma said she saw things, ask me to get rid of the green light that appearing beneath the bed, asking me who is the white little girl standing outside in our living room..

people have said that for those who are getting old and getting near to their death. they are actually able to sense or even see the 'third dimension' or should i put this in this way.. they can see ghost!

for whatever thing is,, i wish my grandma staying happily with her popular loud laughter and loud voice..

i miss her so dearly..

art and food today

went to art exhibition today..

didnt get to take photos.. =(

then went to shogun cause realized that tenji is no longer there.. so.. point is.. if u wana eat.. should eat asap.. shouldnt wait and wait.. see.. the whole shop closed!!

i know i love art so much cause i feel happy being at art exhibition.. =)

Big Bad Wolf book sale

See what i've got from the book sale..

my few year book supply, to enhance and enlighten me

tada~~

Been using this apps on facebook..

saved me from splurging on items like lomo or high tech camera..

胆小鬼

说真的，我到底要什么呢？？

我可以吗？我又那样的能力去应付所有的一切吗？？

为什么，为什么我会这样的责问自己？？

换成以前的我，我会不顾一切。。去做我要的事情，奋不顾身的去争取一切一切。。

我，变了。

变得胆小了

your diary

it's weird yet very tempting to read your diary..

its even weirder to read about your ex when she is now my friend..

i have write something in your diary..

i know,

from the way i can predict, you will not browse through blank pages anytime now as you are too happy with your current lifestyle.. within the comfort zone.. everything now is so perfect for you..

my precious handmade necklaces

thoughts again

i found an apps in facebook.. what a relieve.. finally i can throw away my thoughts on learning photoshop... nice right..

Kevin Mygal said that i have lost some 'light'.. which i said people changed and he barely know me. .true.. i know i have changed from talkative to not that talkative..

i dont know.. people do change after few years right..

but is it for good or bad..

nobody knows

being in another stage of life

very weird.. i am so into making handcrafts right now..

people are pushing me into getting a job..

my wishlist

1. Open an online store by end of this year.

2. Start to do handmade stuff by end of this month. October.

3. Be really hardworking in maintaining my youth.

4. Get a lomo.

5. Stop saying bored!

cooking

Been cooking dinner for 4 days in a row.. many days coming as well..

actually, i am quite enjoy it..

i love my hands covered with smell of spices, smell of garlics, onions..

i love how my family finish up the dishes.. (purposely cook little)

urge to learn more dishes, to upgrade my cooking skill...

but the thing is.. i have to spend more for family again.. aikss

i always wanted someone who can guide me along, teach me, give me advice whenever, wherever i need.. someone who can eventually make me realized that.. i'm actually worth this living.. im actually a useful person.. i'm actually have found my hidden talent..

but.. there are too many reasons behind..

This will happen when a couple get too long time together? getting sick of each other?? yelling and screaming?

ａｒｅthese the　ｃｏｍｉｎｇ years that i will be living for the rest of my life?

it really makes me wonder sometimes. am i the suitable person for him? or vice versa..

Tears haven been my company for these few days.. Avoiding him is my only exist allowing me to think deeply..

i dont want all these.. all these keeping quiet and getting emo for whole day , and 2 days later yelling at me! i do not deserve all of these shit!!

what can i do? yell back at you? start fighting and shouting like a mad people with you?? i can't do this either!! i will speak words that i will regret later.. sentences burst out and will never be take back again.. both of us will get hurt..

do you know that i have been crying a lot since my grandma passed away？　

Do you realized that i have always shed my tears sitting right beside you? and i;ve been trying really hard not to let you see it..do you realized that i have been crying sleeping beside you, and yet you have not sense it．． do you know that i've been crying inside my dreams for past few months after my grandma left me?? can you sense that my guilt for not treating my grandma nicely in her last few days?ｆｏｒ　ｎｏｔ　ｂｅｉｎｇ　ｂｙ　ｈｅｒ　ｓｉｄｅ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｓｈｅ　ｐａｓｓｅｄ　ａｗａｙ．．．

do you realized that i have been happier since my trip from bangkok.. ｔｈａｔ　ｉ；ｖｅ　ｃｏｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｒｅａｌｉｚｅｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｐａｓｓ　ａｗａｙ　．．　ａｎｄ　ｉｔｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｎａｔｕｒｅ　ｗａｙ，ｔｈａｔ　ｉ　ｆｅｅｌ　ｔｈｅ　ｓｉｇｎ　ｈａｓ　ｂｅｅｎ　ｓｈｏｗｎ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ　ｂｙ　ｂｕｄｄｈａ　　．．

ｉ　ａｍ　ｎｏｔ　ｅｘｐｅｃｔｉｎｇ　ｙｏｕ　ｔｏ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｍｅ，　ｔｏ　ｓｅｎｓｅ　ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ｔｈａｔ　ｈａｐｐｅｎｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｌｉｆｅ．．．

ｗｈａｔ　ｉ　ｃａｎｎｏｔ　ａｃｃｅｐｔ　ｉｓ　ｔｈａｔ．．　ｏｎｅ　ｍｏｍｅｎｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｓａｙ　ｉｍ　ｓｏ　ｃｕｔｅ　，　ｊｕｓｔ　ｌｉｋｅ　ａ　ｋｉｄ．．　ａｎｏｔｈｅｒ　ｍｏｍｅｎｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｓａｙ　ｙｏｕ　ｇｅｔ　ｓｏ　ｆｅｄ　ｕｐ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｔａｌｋｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ．．　ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｎｅｘｔ　ｔｈｉｎｇ，　ｙｏｕ　ｓｔａｒｔ　ｔｏ　ｙｅｌｌ　ａｔ　ｍｅ．．

ｌｉｆｅ　ｈａｓ　ｂｅｅｎ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｈａｒｄ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ．．　ｉ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｔｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ　ａｒｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｂｅｓｔ　ｔｈｉｎｇ　ｔｈａｔ　ｅｖｅｒ　ｈａｐｐｅｎ　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｌｉｆｅ．．　ｐｌｅａｓｅ　ｄｏｎｔ　ｌｅｔ　ｍｅ　ｌｏｓｔ　ｍｙ　ｆａｉｔｈ　ｔｏｗａｒｄ　ｙｏｕ，　ｐｌｅａｓｅ　ｄｏｎｔ　ｌｅｔ　ｍｅ　ｓｔｏｐ　ｌｏｖｉｇ　ｙｏｕ．．

ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｏｎｃｅ　ｍｙ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｔｏｗａｒｄ　ｙｏｕ　ｉｓ　ｇｏｎｅ．　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ　ｃａｎ　ｂｒｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ｂａｃｋ　ｔｏ　ｙｏｕ．．　ｉ　ｒａｔｈｅｒ　ｓｔａｙ　ａｌｏｎｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｙｏｕ

have u ever consider..that i may not always been able to please you.. have u ever re-consider.. that i may not be your cup of tea..

The Road Not Taken

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.



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i got a bak chi sister

updating blog

it seems that i have abundant this blog of mine..

meaningless crap:

road crossings,

heart beating,

mind cracking..

birds chirping,

cats meowing,

aunties gossiping,

mom is nagging me to get marry asap.. gosh.. i haven't even reach 25 years old (according to birth dates instead of year of birth), then she said no people will want me after all the years I've spent with ry..

T________________T

i think she wants a grandson/grand daughter.. too bad.. i'm not having one in this coming or next coming year..

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i have noticed the weight i've gained for the past 1 year..

Blame my unresistant toward delicious food and 100% no exercises..

meaningless crap:

metabolism lowering,

food consuming,

fats allocating,

calories gaining,

bf laughing,

You've got to find what you love

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, it's likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope it's the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

This is a prepared text of the Commencement address delivered by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, on June 12, 2005

颓废了

因为最近搬了家，新家并没有TM网络， 加上我使用过的broadband真的很够差。。总是断下断下。。所以也没有购买broadband。。我好久都没看pps啦啊！！！！

放工回家就对着四面墙壁。。

整个人都变得很颓废了。。虽然我的颓废程度比起我的弟妹还差得远。。

可是。。

我需要放松。。

无忧无虑的生活。。

十二星座男生喜欢的女生类型

十二星座男生喜欢的女生类型

白羊座男生：他喜欢明朗快活而有自主性的女孩

白羊座的男孩是男人中的男人。因为十分热情，所以只要喜欢的话，就会直接表示出来。喜欢或讨厌表现的很明显。最不欣赏那些态度暧昧犹豫不决的人。喜欢那种明朗快活充满精神干脆爽快，并有自主性的聪明女孩。喜欢娇小玲珑的女孩。也就是所谓的‘短小精悍型’。既聪明又喜欢运动和冒险的女孩，也是他心仪的对象。一旦遇到喜欢的女孩，就会直接接展开攻势，至于对方对自己的看法则一点也不在乎。就会展开热情的追求。

金牛座男生：他喜欢诚实且声音甜美的女孩子

诚实正经的人。虽然不是热情澎湃会积极主动追求女孩子的人，但用情至深且专一，因此追求的对象，也希望是位可爱诚实的女孩。因为喜欢突显自己所以最不欣赏那些喜欢卖弄知识，穷究事理的女孩。又，对于笑容可掬，声音甜美的女孩也十分欣赏。除此之外对于美的感觉非常敏锐，但对华丽的感觉，则深感厌烦。特别重视配色。最不喜欢庸俗华丽的频色。比起短发，宁可留像女孩子一般松而内卷的长发。喜欢温柔善良的女孩子。太过死皮或骨感的女孩子，则引不起他的兴趣。

双子座男生：他喜欢头脑灵活的女孩

双子座的男孩头脑灵活，富有幽默感，且知识颇丰。能带给女孩子欢乐气息的，他是一个很受女孩子欢迎的人。又因为是个八面玲珑的人，所以虽然是知性的星座， 但却不会沉溺在恋爱之中有点花心的他，一点也不欣赏严肃而缺乏情趣的女孩。对于开朗聪明，而能欣赏他的幽默女孩，最具好感。如果想得到他的青睐的话，就得好好动动头脑。因为他不喜欢太过迟钝的人。而体积太过庞大的女孩，也是他的拒绝往来户。尤其是胖女人，更无法引起他的兴趣。聪明可爱的容貌，配上流行的短发最能吸引追求时髦的女孩。为了讨好他，你可以多做这样的打扮。

巨蟹座男生：他喜欢不爱出风头而充满温馨的女孩

浪漫，能保护所爱的人，并且有真诚之爱的他，因为自己也是个爱撤娇的孩子，所以很注重心灵的交流。他所追求的对象，必定和他母亲有许多相似的地方。对于所爱的人，也一直认定她是未来结婚的对象。因此他不欣赏活跃的女孩，而喜欢温柔纯真的女孩。比起五官明显的女孩，他还是比较喜欢圆脸而福相的好孩。而头发方面则喜欢长发。最讨厌华丽而庸俗的打扮。平凡朴素而充满温馨的美，最能吸引他。 安详文静，对人温和的女孩，深受他的喜爱。如果想要得到他的好感的话，千万不可爱出锋头。反而应该大大的发挥女性应有的温柔。

狮子座男生：他喜欢能将喜怒哀乐清楚表现出来的女性

如太阳般的明亮，喜欢以自我为中心，而能够服从自己，并且人见人夸的漂亮女孩。但是不论多么漂亮的女孩，如果太过畏缩胆怯的话，则无法爱到他的青睐。喜欢如向日葵一般明艳，且带有一点傲气及个性的现代美女。书读不好没有关系，只要头脑灵活聪明就可以了。不够机灵的女孩不论长得再漂亮，依然无法受到他的重视。如果想要得到他的青睐的话，就面对着镜子，挤眉弄眼找出各种丰富的表情。他欣赏能够将喜怒哀乐各种表情，清楚表现出来的女孩。带点夸张的戏剧效果，更能引起他的注意。又，追求流行，喜欢穿鲜艳时髦的服装。比较性感的女孩，较能吸引他。

处女座男生：他喜欢有智慧较保守的女孩

虽然对女孩亲切而热心服务，但因为原属知性的星座，所以是位略带神经质而喜爱清洁的男子。基本上，喜欢追求宁静的气氛。因此对于那些喋喋不休，或缺乏知性美的女孩，根本不屑不顾。而对于像散放着芳香的红色玫瑰那般美丽的女孩，也不见得会动心。有智慧，身材纤细，脸小而圆，散发出如香皂般的香味，敏感而朴素的女孩，最能打动他的心弦。他最讨厌笨拙的女孩。也讨厌没有规矩的人。因为是个十分注重细节的男孩，所以懂得整理爱情羽毛。像指甲有没有修剪，鞋子有没有体，校徽有没有弄皱这些细微之处，都是他注意的焦点。

天秤座男生：他喜欢个性直爽而热情的女孩

虽然是个男孩，但因为喜爱打扮，所以一直让人觉得是个收拾得很干净的人。天秤座是最嫌恶丑陋的星座。也是12星座中，英俊男子最多的一个星座。 对于感情毫不盲目的他，懂得避开会使自己深陷其中的感情漩涡。所以感情用事的女孩，一向无法吸引他。又，因为对于感情比较被动，所以比较喜欢热情而直爽的女孩。因为12星座中，最会以貌取人的星座，因此不仅注重别人貌美，也在意别人的妆扮。对于这样的他，‘不要只看外表，而要注重内在’这一句话，似乎起不了什么作用。因为十分重视外表，所以太胖的人必须开始减肥了！一直将自己的身材，锻链到能适合流行趋势为止。活泼而时髦的女孩，是他一直追求的条件。而注重礼仪，也是必要的条件。

天蝎座男生：他喜欢向困难挑战的女孩

一旦爱上一个女孩，就专心一致，热情不褪，在12星座中，用情最深的他，同样要求对方要有深挚而真诚的感情。能够吸引他的异性，是温和而对事物十分专注的女孩。对于喜欢男孩奉承，拍马屁的女孩，即使自己喜欢的类型，也只有保持距离而不去接近。保守的他虽然看起来看斯文，但却欣赏性感而有一身古铜肌肤的女孩。不强调追求流行，但喜欢奇特而有创意的服装。不过却不欣赏女孩子做这样的打扮。喜欢有个 性美的女孩化妆时强高嘴唇的特色，至于头发则以长发较能吸引他，尤其乌黑柔亮的秀发，能散发出让人无法抗拒的魅力。

射手座男生：他喜欢爱笑和运动的女孩

十分热情而心术正直的他，个性也非常明朗爽快。如果喜欢上一个女孩一定不会将自己的感情隐藏起来。就如他的象征符号－－箭一般，会直接射向对方的心扉。而比较性急的他，对于被动的女孩，则缺乏兴趣。 虽然爱慕着他，但也能和其他异性相处愉快的女孩子，只要能挑起他的占有欲，就会受到他的青睐。除此之外，还欣赏个性爽快且自我主张强的女孩，欣赏身材曲条且有健康美，并有一张外国面孔的美女。比起温柔的女孩，他比较喜欢爱好运动，个性爽朗，笑容满面的女孩但却讨厌俗不可耐的女孩。不喜欢打扮的太复杂，因此朴素而有灵秀之美的女孩最能吸引他。

魔羯座男生：他喜欢被温柔可爱的女孩所吸引

什么事情都慢半拍，恋爱之芽也萌发的比别人慢。虽然火分热情，但因为缺乏积极主动追求女孩子的勇气，因此常常无法享受到恋爱的滋味。会沉溺于恋爱，或被情所困的他，并不欣赏那种人见人夸，像玫瑰一般明艳的女孩，反而喜欢那种孤芳自赏，如野菊般可爱的女孩。对于那种粗枝大叶，张囗哈哈大笑的女孩，则产生心理上的厌恶。身材曲条，脸小，额宽，眼大给人温柔感觉得女孩，是他欣赏的对象。除此之外，也不喜欢穿着华 丽，打扮妖艳的女孩，也不欣赏穿金带银饰这种。散发温柔光芒的人最对他的囗味，因此具有温柔，坚实特性的人，也是他喜欢的对象。

水瓶座男生：他喜欢有智慧，有个性的女孩

因为是知性的星座，所以水瓶座男孩的爱是明确而健康的。由于不讨好女孩子，所以那种讲究气氛，追求浪漫的女孩子会觉得他是个不解风情的男人。而他不欣赏那种喜欢幻想织梦的女孩。对于缺乏自主性，人云亦云的人更觉反感。 他最喜欢有个性，有见解，能表现自己意见的自慧型的女孩。在妆扮方面，他从不考虑是否合适自己，只是对于那些一味追求流行的人不屑一顾。他喜欢那种穿着得体，脸上泛发出健康美的女孩，而性格开朗，头脑灵活乐观健 谈，且能赞同他看法的女孩，最能吸引他。又因为他很重友，所以关心朋友的女孩，和能将自己理念清楚说出来的女孩，及喜欢穷根究理的女孩，都是他欣赏的对 象。

双鱼座男生：他喜欢心地善良感情丰富的女孩

双鱼座的他，心地善良，浪漫，感情丰富，还有一点爱撒娇。他是一个不能没有爱情滋润的男孩，对爱最强调的是心灵的契合。心地喜良的女孩，最能吸引他。而纯真，眼睛大的女孩，和那种楚楚动人，我见犹怜的女孩，也是十分欣赏的对象。 除此之外，那种很会关怀照顾别人，带有一种如母亲般的温柔气质的女孩，也能深深的吸引住他。他最讨厌那种强辞夺理，咄咄逼人的女孩。虽然书读不好但是心地善良的女孩，也是他喜欢的对象。

Mei Ling's wedding

Went to Bentong to celebrate Mei Ling's wedding.. that few days we just keep travel between Karak and Bentong.. small but nice places to relax.

lazy to write.. just photos here..

wahaha
by the way. so many durian stalls over there..

lalalala

sigh..

i miss him so much.. why?? why?? why???


laalalalaaalaaaaa


sure complaint after see this photo..

waiting for his call, time flies so fast and I'm still at the same place waiting..

疯了。。

傻了。。

失忆了。。

我傻掉了。。。

晚餐吃了好多好多。。在吃着甜品时有点儿要吐的感觉。。一个字来形容。。

爽

高兴嘛。。吃酱多，有的吃其实是一种福气。。

Speed dating

I don’t understand. Why there are some people like to make the whole world aware that he or she is mad or pissed off at the moment. Please. Doing so just making yourself looking completely immature, cannot control your temper, having low EI as well as IQ. Making a fuss doesn’t help at all! You are just disgracing yourself. &*&*(&..

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Apart from this inappropriate incident which happens to me today, there is another interesting topic which I have had with my friends today. Well, most of my friends at work are single. My definition of most is 9 out of 10 are single. They are pretty, approachable and decent girls, yet they are single. I believe mainly because they are particular in choosing boy friend or future husband. Can’t blame them, there isn’t many ‘high-quality’ guys available nowadays.

So Yen brings out a topic where she came across an interesting website. It’s like in order for you to get discount for a particular item; you need to maybe sell out something to get the discount. Something roughly like that.

So one of the item is speed dating.

In order to get discount at one fine restaurant, you need to go for a blind date. So my friends suggest why don’t we go and have a try. Let’s make some new friends!! Of course I have to come along. All right, I’ll go then. I’m not telling lie if I say I’m single. I am single!! (just unavailable) cut off the just unavailable..

okay, I go for the food. From RM90++ price range drop to RM30++. Such a huge mistake if I missed the food.

My friends even said I might find doctors over there. I hardly believe doctors will go this kind of speed dating. I believe most of the people going will be either geeks or otaku.

I wonder if the guys will think that I eat a lot?? Nahh, let’s see shall we. Whether we can go for speed dating!!

don't know why.. i like these photos.. yes, it's almost the same pose.. i like to see my skin colour in these photos.. like I'm blushing..

What will I be like if I start using make up??

Prettier???

damn it

I am stupid..

to believe in such kind of people..

enjoy ur life!

I always wonder, is there anopne who likes my blog? Who actually enjoy reading it.. I know I am nobody, but writing blog is my channel to release stress and of course my so called ‘diary’.

I have been trying so hard to write my feelings, experience and thoughts in diaries. After all the difficult years, the most I can write is perhaps not more than 20 pages. Regarding the so called diaries, hundreds of blank pages still remained untouched.

Instead, look at this blog. I start writing in the mid of year 2008.. not bad though..

Somehow, I enjoyed reading back some of my old posts. It refreshes some of my memories. And to witness how I have changed from a student to a working young lady. Yes yes, my appearance still stays the same. Not much difference. But the things I write had changed, from assignments to workload. From long posts to short sentences.

There is still a long way for me to go, many things waiting for me to explore and experience.

I am excited about my future life, yet at the same time, it makes me nervous, not knowing what kind of obstacles are standing ahead of me.

I always believe in something.

Live to enjoy your life!!

p/s: pls give me more comments, anyone reading it?

Bangkok Ei8ht

It’s amazing to see how a white man can write so truthful about Thailand and Thai’s culture. Must have done a lot of research.. But the thing is, he didn’t translate those foreign languages like Thai’s or German’s.

Anyway, I’m going to Bangkok this coming May.. a long way to go..

Omg, I just found the whole novel in internet..

在家的感觉实在是太太太棒了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

上网，大吃大喝，无须工作，睡觉，驾车。。

好好的享受下。。

蓝蓝的

天气好热哦。。

昨晚和RY去看半夜场，因太迟在上映，所以我们到附近的餐厅吃我们的宵夜/晚餐。。很奇怪的，我俩又像往常谈了政治，其他国家的战争，和一些经济情况。

好奇怪，因为他有个奇怪和无说不谈的女友。。 他终于觉得我的提议不错！！！春夏秋冬。。 哈哈哈。。

好奇怪。。 看了笑话片，心情竟然是蓝蓝的。。都怪夜晚的我总是太感性了。。

今天早上起床后，心情好了。。

我爱宁静的夜晚。。

lame joke

pls tell this lame joke in cantonese..

有一天，关公，刘备和张飞一起去看电影。。

可是！！ 他们只有一张戏票。。

请问!!

是谁得到那张戏票呢？？


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关公得到那张戏票。

因为。。张飞刘备关公　　（广东话）

在广东话是。

张飞刘备（留俾）关公

zeong fei lao bei guan gong..




Get it??

little pieces

went to Pahang for CNY..my sis havent give me the photos.. i just get few from her fb..

Domo found a new friend... this seems like Domo is hiting his new friend..such a sad face from a new friend

Sungai Lembing bridge

ME!!! at Sg Lembing..

感想

你可以一个人在戏院看场戏吗？或一个人在餐厅吃饭。。

当每个人都有个伴或和一大帮人嘻嘻哈哈时，而你则默默地坐在一旁。。

我有些朋友是可以的，甚至受朋友影响，我有个时间不介意一个人吃饭。。可是，久而久之，那寂寞的感觉又出现了。。我总觉得一个人做事是很闷很孤单的，总觉得寂寞真的很难耐。。我好想有个人和我谈谈天，光吃饭太闷了。。可是，我并不介意一个人走街，哈哈，可能这个几率很低吧。。


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给一个叫男朋友的人，

我们在一起快4年了，时间过得感觉有时快有时慢。。
我们所经历过的事，浪费过得时间，一起哭过，一起笑过。。等等等等。。
你还记得吗？？
很高兴你还疼爱我，
我也很感激因为你也爱我的一切，我的家人，我的坏习惯。。
你是我的好朋友，好情人，有潜质的好老公。。
我时常和你说，如果有一天我俩便成了家人似的，我可能会放弃这段感情。。。
可是想想，我不是要找老公吗？
我寻找的，不是轰轰烈烈，不是什么海枯石烂的感情，当然也不是细水长流的爱情。。

我要的。。
是他可以永远疼爱我，忠于我，让我觉得他是可以和我有未来的人，笑哈哈的走完一辈子。。

BYE BYE S.YEE

Celebrating s.yee last day..

finally, off she goes to Australia while i am still suffocating and drowning with my workload.. so bored of it... anyway.. we went to Curve..

Had Kenny rogers and went to Laundry..

yes,, we drink and do our laundry...


joking.. Laundry is one of the pub located at the end of The Walk.. Sill..y eh.. I first thought Opera is a place for us to view opera. I didn't know it's a club.. so paiseh

Yen and Judy.. i asked everyone to wear nice nice.. end up i'm being the most normal person.. as usual.. they all give up at me already..

our very 'man' picture..

i look nice with my short hair..


got high even before i drink..
me and Judy.. sayang-ing her.. hehe.. did the most ridiculous thing today.. i tried to match her up with a fren of mine..well, not to say me as a matchmaker / cupid.. just want her to know more friends.. that's it!!!





group photo..

had great fun that day, nice job women!!!