nothing particular

1. Watching (500) days of summer… alone of course.. Always plan to watch some good movies, but friends either gave me a strange stare or jaw drop after I say the movies that I wana watch.. Because they never ever heard of those movies.. Examples, the time traveler’s wife, law abiding citizen.. Sigh.. Am I so odd? I don’t think so..

2. Trying to finish the novel that I’ve been ‘diligently’ reading.. a novel that I borrowed from library hoping that after reading it, it will somehow gives me a clue on how should I deal with my trouble.. Few pages per day is quite a slow progress.. gotta speed up!!!

3. There is a test on this coming Monday but I haven’t even flip through any of those pages..

So, what to say..

I felt empty and alone sometimes..

Feel alone when I am alone, feel alone when I’m with bunch of people.. Feel alone when I’m facing some problems, feel alone when I’m in doubt, feel alone when I have no idea what is ahead of me. Feel like I’m not belong to anywhere or anything..

I truly feel pleased to see my friends when they are hanging out with their beloved.. I never agreed on living together before marriage because it gives me an impression that you can have the rest of your life to spend with this same particular someone, why so rush to stay together now when you have forever waiting for you? However ironically, I wish that I could be like one of them sometimes..

Cuddling on the bed, watching movies together, preparing dinner together, celebrating any unnecessary occasion, eating take-away food, laughing at my lame jokes, doing the chores together…

I’m having my ridiculous day dream again..

It seems that I still haven’t cope well with my single-but-unavailable life style now..

I always fill up my schedule by hanging out with my friends.. To make myself busier.. To use up my time so that I won’t start to think something stupid and hopeless..

It is just making me exhausted and broke..

happy birthday to me

As for choosing a nice place for my birthday celebration, I suggested to go Garden rather following my friend’s option.. They wanted me to go TGI’s Friday and will somehow force me to stand on the chair and sing songs. In order to avoid those things from happening, I stick to my own plan..

Maybe I’ve told them before that Garden’s food may not be that satisfying but the ambience there is splendid.. and so they reluctantly followed me anyway..

A baby grand piano is placed in middle.. Pianist will only play during weekends and if you wana play for the audience.. Just go ahead.. I wonder if I ask ry to play for me, will he play??

Think again…

I think the chances are very slim…

mei ling me and lai ching..

My face went reddish and I was slightly dizzy because of the red wine that I’ve ordered..

gv, me and winkee

mine: fish and chips

a very small portion, not enough for me..

lai ching's green curry

mei ling and winkee's black pepper chicken

gv's king prawn

They all seem don’t have the interest in taking photos

so you see only me

birthday cake..

make a wish..

thank you my friends

end of birthday..

happy birthday to me...

HapPy BirThDay to ME...



sin may wishes that she'll be healthier and happier and everything that she wishes will come true..

read this from ry

art gallery... ^^

Visiting art gallery has always been one of my must-do-activity with bf.. I have always been very keen to visit an art gallery but somehow ry shows no interest at all.. Just like he got no interest to go camping or do any other outdoor activities with me.. Never mind, it’s ok..i can’t blame him for not having the same interest as mine..

Hehe… I got friends..

Polar bear my long lost relative brought me to this gallery which situated at mont kiara.. To celebrate my birthday 2 days earlier..Okay, I don’t know whether it’s an art gallery or just another exhibition but I really enjoyed myself being there..

teddy bear in chinese plates version gave me lilies...
<3 teddy

I was extremely thrilled when I finally able to enter an art gallery.. God knows how much I wana go…

of course this time I don’t jump around showing my joy and excitement explicitly.. I seldom do these either…*cough cough* I got my image and reputation to take care of.. Crap..

the dreaming 1

Back to the paintings… honestly, I never know that 1 painting could easily cost few thousands or even up to RM85, 000…(with just 3 faces on the painting cost RM85,000 ).. and there are people actually willing to pay a fortune to buy these pieces of artwork…

absolutely not my level, no matter how much I love the painting, I can only stare at them as I can’t even afford the painting’s frame..

Mind you, it’s written there.. Once touched consider sold…

Not even once broken consider sold!!!

I don’t even dare to get near any of those painting fearing that my breath may cause those painting to be ruin…then it will cost me a bomb for my silly breath mistake…

I love these a lot… made of threads if not mistaken..

so lost just like me..

I know I’m happy but I don’t think Polar bear is happy being there.. haha..

he says he can’t understand.. Well, neither do i.. haha..

But I love to see pretty stuff.. That’s it.. Anything that is able to caught my attention is just absolutely appealing..

<3 love

Do you know what this is?

<3

Is a kiss right?

Ry said it’s an ass..

He insisted that the 3 is an ass..

ry is an assssssssssss hole..

He is getting more childish ady lo…

tsk tsk tsk…

Can you please don’t be so childish… *speaking using my sister’s tone and showing this face -______- *

Hahahhaa…


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Went to other class gathering the other day.. okie.. I’m not close with my own classmates at all but I am close with other class people.. we took some silly photos.. I think is my idea or what..

A Couple is being frustrated and depress about their relationship..

I have to admit that I cant stop laughing all the while…

2 gals fighting for a guy..

I’m the winner.. wahahhaa… loser is crying.. hahah

go back home and cry!!!

hahahha..

evil winner says it all

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i cannot stop laughing when web cam ing with ry..

He kept on showing me middle fingers..

i’m so sad.. He is so rude to me..

I wana change bf ady!!!!!!!!

Hokkien Gang

I went sing karaoke today with few of my course mates…



Well, was puzzled all the while when hanging out with them because they communicate in hokkien while I’m still in the midst of learning hokkien…



No doubt I am the quietest person among them!!!



I learnt few hokkien words today!!! Like raining, umbrella, 4 ppl, laugh..



Yippie!!!

Hong and Kit

Well, I did try to speak sometimes.. But I mixed with some mandarin or some cantonese inside my hokkien sentence..

And I even create my own hokkien language…which makes all my friends burst into laughter… while I’m sitting there don’t know what the hell is going on...and I hate it the most when they talk they laugh and I don’t understand at all..

Chiew and Kit

They asked me, why I wanna learn hokkien?? Why must North Hokkien some more?

My answer---à so that next time when I go for my vacation in Penang, those Indian Penangnites who able to understand and speak fluent hokkien won’t tease and laugh at me anymore..

(I came across few incidents where people tease me just because I cant understand hokkien.. T_______T)

They would say something like..

Omg.. You are a Chinese and you can’t understand hokkien??

And followed by…

We are Indians also we can speak in hokkien leh..

which followed by…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA……

(Mm… maybe I should just fight back using hakka …added with some hakka foul language.. hahaha)

Okay.. I talked too much…

the 4 of us, with half of my face..

Hong singing love song to kit..

I always thought Hong is a very serious type of guy, which turns out totally opposite.. All of the sudden, ‘don’t judge a book by its cover’ seems to appearing in my mind now…

I forced Chiew to stand beside the 2012 board and let me snap her photo..

After finished singing, we headed back to condominium to fetch Hong’s gf for dinner..Which of course they start to talk in the car.. And I said something stupid…

“This is the first time I heard a couple talking in hokkien.”

And eventually people around me start to laugh… *faint*

i love the word call random ...

grocery shopping with frensss....
happy ^^

japanese food~~~~~
happy happy ^^

bruises that last for few weeks..
i tried to donate blood...
however, my stupid precious blood come out too slow and nurse said cannot use my blood..
too little..
only 100ml instead of 350ml..
T____________T

rainy day
gloomy...
>.<''

i found love
<3 love

found this photo..
a pig is snoring...

random random random

Today seems to be gloomy for me.. My friend break up with her bf due to long distance relationship..

I was thinking of getting some tips from her about how to sustain long distance relationship then she told me sadly that hers ended ady..

Maybe they have been stay apart for quite a long period of time (her bf is not a Malaysian and not staying anywhere in Malaysia) and my dearest friend has lost faith on their relationship.

How sad..

I hate it when my friends break up..

It’s just like when last time jane told me that she wana break up with bf, I was a little bit depress. Because I have so much faith on them and believe that they will live happily ever after. Or maybe I just want them to prove to me that long distance relationship can actually work..

Then I realize that what makes her happy makes me happy too..


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Later I might be going for grocery shopping and to cut my hair??

I feel like cutting my hair short, well, till shoulder length.. but I still haven’t bored with my long hair.. I desperately need my long hair to cover my back, which currently looks like a battlefield.. Full of pimples and scratches and scares..

About grocery shopping, what I wana buy?
Chocolates for sure…
Cheese and herbs.. I wanna finish up my pasta..
Some seasoning thingy..
Instant noodle..
Blah blah blah..

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I tried to study for pendidikan moral yesterday night.. When I reached half of the second page, I fall asleep.. How amazing.. Moral can make a person fall asleep in no time…

*******

I am so pissed off with uni’s computer now.. and my laptop as well..


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few hours later..............


Back from grocery shopping…
Happier now…

=)

don't think so much

It’s been really depressing after having some serious conversation with bf for the past 2 days.

We talked about future. This is something which I am afraid of for the time being. The more I’m scare about it; the more I’m gonna think about it.

Honestly, I know I have been thinking way too far from the track. Maybe it seems to be something less vital to him but as usual I’ll think very deeply about the problem arises.

Where will he be assign to work after he back from Scotland? No one knows. He is bound to government contract for several years. This means that he has to work somewhere far away from the city or even other states. And most importantly, he will be far away from me. Again… Sigh..

It seems like we are not gonna be like other normal lovely couples. I’m not saying that I want to live with him or stick with him 24/7. It’s just that I hope we can spend time together, whenever and wherever I want.

But, it doesn’t seem to be working the way I want it to be.

It’s just gonna be another distance relationship again.

We will stay far away from each other.

We will be communicating using phone and internet again.

If lucky enough, we might able to see each other during weekends. Or maybe meet once or twice in a month.

He will be far away when I needed him the most.

He will be far away when I am sick.

He will be far far away when I am bored.

He will be far away from me when I think of his silly behaviors.

I have to adapt to loneliness.

I have to be more independent again.

I have to learn to cook enough portions for myself and eat alone.

I have to solve problems by myself.

I have to cry alone while hugging the little pillow that he gave me.

Yes, friends do play an important role, but you just can’t expect them to be beside you all the time. They have their own activities too. I can’t expect them to accompany me whenever I want. Even my siblings have no time for me sometimes.

All of the sudden, I miss our time spent together..

He says that he can travel over and find me during weekends. And that is when he is working at seremban while I’m in kl. So what about if he is at places like penang, kedah or maybe sabah?

Maybe I should follow my friends and also his advice.

Don’t think so much!!

Sorry for my midnight mumblings.

It’s almost 2am.

It’s midnight

Midnights make me emo.