Most people think they have no option but to settle for what life has shown them.
A few lucky ones know that they can change their lives and go searching for something better.
i have been working for 3 days now.. more to online, daydream and did nothing in office. because i am still new here, they haven't update whatever thing which makes me couldn't log on into the intranet.
so basically i got nothing to do for these couple of days..
which is good, colleagues ask me to enjoy my only free time.. because what coming up next is definitely too much for me to handle..
long hours of work, i wonder whether i can take it or not.. well, gotta try for sure..
anyway, i like the environment here.. but i don't understand why i have to pay to buy a hot drinks from vending machine.. i mean last time when i work at the bank, they provide FREE drinks... wahhaha.. because i always tend to have milo coffee as my breakfast.. now, i have to bring my own biscuits and eat in office.. poor me..
about my living place now, i have good housemates.. i think they are good.. so far so good.. but one of them or few of them are smokers. they smoke inside the aircon living room.. so, every morning, when i open my door, instead of fresh air, i smell cigarette smell.. sigh.. i wanted to tell her that can you please don't smoke inside the house, but i don't dare.. i scare she might get offended or something.. then she stares at me everyday.. o o.. they got a pet, a very fluffy bunny.. i feed it yesterday.. i feel pity for the bunny because it stays in the living room.. bunny will get lung cancer very soon.. bye bye bunny.. must remember that i feed you dinner yesterday
anyway, sinmay is so so so independent right now... i went to do grocery shopping alone, eat alone at home, go and back to work alone.. always stays inside her room because of the cigarette smell in the living room...
p/s; wrote this in office.. pp/s: no time to check spelling and sentence... do not blame me if there is something wrong..
Well, not really hard work. Actually I redesign/redo one of the leftover dolls that my sister has given up with. Because of the few layers of the colour coats eventually make the doll’s skin appear to be kinda rough. My sis gave up and so I add on some buttons and paint some colours on the abandoned poor little doll.
Well, my sister’s friends say it doesn’t looks appealing and they were forced to sell it. I forced my sis to sell, well not to say sell, more to like simply put on table see if anyone will buy it or not. I think they might afraid people may think that how come their art standard drop dramatically. Because people sure think that one of the student did that 2 faces bunny..
Guess what??
Got people like it lo.. They say my 2 face bunny is adorable.. (2 fine art students and one of them bought it).this girl was surprise to find out that the bunny has 2 faces. Hahahhaha..
but they sell it for rm5 only instead of rm8. dolls today all sell cheaper on last day..maybe like rm6 or rm7. what the hell, nevermind, at least got people wana have it.. hahhaa
And a…
I became my sister’s art class model today.
Hahahahha…
I sit there for few hours and let people draw me..
But first, there was this so called warming up, I changed my poses every 5 minutes to let people do some rough sketching.
I don’t know why the lecturer just asked me to sit there. he didn't request me to do any weird pose or show any face expression. And I got money in the end. Funny experience eh..
and this is what i gave them.
a sad sad face comes with a boring pose..
hahahahahhaa...
i feel sorry for them because of my boring pose and drop dead uninteresting face expression, they can't draw out something innovative..sis said they were exhausted and when they see me they can't think of anything. (black, boring pose, sad face)
but i did asked my sister what i should wear, she said i can wear anything.. and the lecturer asked me to just sit there. so i just sit there lo...
my sis ruined one of the doll. because she got so fed up with her group business and she decided to change some of her products.. before this it was tamama.. all her friends' products were selling well except for hers.. whoopsss..
she painted the colours on top of another. so i think the coat was too thick then it got ruined. so yest midnight around 3 something, i got so high and i asked her to allow me to play the leftover one. she drew the ears part before so i just continue with the other parts.
taa daaa~~~~~~~~~
happy face
blur face
happy and blur, which perfectly describe who sin may is..
hahahhahaa...
and one more thing, i asked my sis to help me sell my sudden made product..
which all of the her friends (art students) say my bunny is so ugly.. messy somemore..
(ya la, i was damn sleepy and blur at that time, but as what people say, when the mood is there, you will make yourself awake to finish the art piece)
*vomit+faint+coma*
i have to admit that i don't have any art sense in my gene. i wasn't born with it..
well, what the hell, but at least i laugh when i see my own handmade stupid bunny aka 2 faces bunny.
I hope that I have chosen a correct path. I’ve reject other offers. Just hope that I can handle this one well enough. Well, even if I don’t, I can just jump right? I didn’t see myself working for a lifetime in the corporate world. I see myself doing something else. Something else which is more interesting..
Ooo.. Someone is in relationship!!
Abrupt decision?
Don’t think so..
Anyway, I hope she stays happie always because she is such a nice person and nice person deserves a caring bf.
I got really pissed off yesterday night. What for?
I’m searching a room. Damn, pj area’s rooms are so bloody expensive. Suck my blood meh.. Plus, I got no own transport, which means I have to depend solely on bus. *faint*.. I am so fed up with public transports ady.. They never comes on time for sure, not enough seats, bloody packed.. omg.. If I’m late for work, what are the consequences? Deduct my salary? Getting strange stares from colleagues? Too much of worries.. Few days to go and I am still at hometown.
I wonder why the 2 pets at the right side never die even though I didn’t feed them for months. And they never produce any offspring.. They do nothing except just crawling around and be click by me.. No other activities like.. Maybe mating??
I told ry that I’m gonna become a workaholic if I accept that job offer. And we will have lesser time to spend together. Because I might need to bring work home, overtime everyday for sure and might even need to work on Saturday. Well, some Saturdays I guess. It’s supposed to be a 5 days job.
So I say if we are going to stay together next time, which I see the chances are very slim for the time being. I told him to wait for me to come back home and prepare me a nice dinner. Then he says he gonna become a househusband.
I am so thrilled because I keep imagining how ry and me wearing formal clothes and walking together in a shopping mall. Funny. I feel excited for stupid thing.
And I start to daydream about how I am gonna walk my future daughter to her primary school in the morning, of course I will be wearing my formal suits and calling my client using the other hand.
Then my future daughter friends will say to my future daughter.
Friend number 1: “SS2!!(assume future daughter’s name is SS2) your mom is so pretty!!!”
Friend number 2:“ya, she is so modern and so pretty…”
HAHAHAHAHHAHAA….
Okay, sorry for the sudden brain damage.
About the SS2, I told ry that our children gonna be named as SS2, SS3,SS4.. hahaha… because easy to be remember.
Maybe something like this--- seow shi two ----> SS2.
It was a joke that we both shared, stupid eh!!!
Okay, sorry for the sudden brain damage part 2.
I wana go to MCD at this hour, 11.18pm to have chicken prosperity burger as supper!!! But my sister don’t wana go with me. Stupid brother ain’t around here.
Sometimes I feel down for what people have thought about me. I know what kind of person I am. Frankly speaking I’m a straight forward type of person, really straight forward. But it doesn’t mean that I hate you or what. I’m just telling you what I have in my mind.
I will tell out everything in my mind before processing it. I didn’t know that by telling the truth, people may get offended and even despise me for that. And it hurts me a lot when I realize that people hate me for that. Every now and then, I really can’t figure out that things that I said were wrong. Or at least it was wrong to them.
So, from now on, I should have talk lesser or maybe just keep my mouth shut.
Or I should have said all the good things instead of bad things.
Or maybe I should have create another story and tell them lies?
When I say out a thing, maybe I didn’t really mean it. Or maybe I don’t really know how to express myself. But the person who is listening will twist and turn my initial meaning. And from their own personal perspective, they will perceive me as a bad evil person.
When I am telling something, the other party who is listening misunderstood my meaning, and then he might add in oil, sugar, herbs to things that I’ve said. Then he will perceive that siNMay is such a materialistic, selfish, awful bitch, hope she rots in hell. And he tells everyone that I am this materialistic selfish awful bitch.
Misunderstood?
Seriously, if you really thinks that I’ve said something wrong and hurt you directly, can you just tell me face to face what’s wrong with me. Instead telling others that I’ve changed a lot and couldn’t believe that I am such an awful person?
Sigh..
There are no evil plans in my mind. I don’t wish to conquer the world. I don’t wish people to die. Yes, I am realistic but I am not materialistic. Maybe I did say wrong thing, but just because I didn’t know what had happen.
There was this one stupid case happened to me before when I was in genting. In that case, I don’t think that there is anything wrong with me as I am just telling the truth.
Well, there is this girl, let’s just named her A. Her boyfriend was cheating on her with another girl named B. Everyone knows about it including A. I know her boyfriend as a friend but I don’t know her.
My other friend told me that she saw A following her ex walking into the guys hostel. So when we were chatting 1 day, I’ve told her bf about she followed her ex into the room, which I said it out accidentally. I really don’t mean it. Then the bf told me that she lied to him coz she said she went for laundry on that day.
So 1 day when I was waiting for my friends. This A came to me. She asked me are you XXX and you are my bf’s friend right? I was in shocked but still I answer her politely. Then she asked me about her bf’s scandal. I said ya. Then she asked, if you are in my position, will you still with him?
Then without thinking why the hell she comes and talks to me or why she asked such weird questions. I told her straightforwardly what’s in my mind. I said.. Of course I will dump him. He cheated on you. He be with you at the same time and he makes love with another girl. I personally can’t accept that.
After a while we went off..
Few days later, the bf told me.. you know what, my gf hates you so much. She didn’t allow me to go out if you are in the gang I said what the hell? The reason is……
I said bad things about her bf.
*faint directly and gets coma*
What the hell is wrong with this girl? She hates me because I tell the truth instead of hating the girl who sleeps with her bf? She hates me just because I said that her bf is a Casanova and it is not worth to be with this kind of guy..
It is even gross when the bf told me about his sex life with his second gf---B.
To myself,
Sinmay, there are many people out there. Some are just oversensitive. Some have shallow minds. They couldn’t accept who you are or things that you said. So my dear, you should think for others before you say something. Think from their point of view.
If you think that you are right, keep it to yourself instead of express everything out. You will not know who might get oversensitive and misunderstanding can occur anytime. And remember.. They might despise you for things that you’ve said.
Another thing that I always believe is, friends are better in quality instead of quantity.
I don't really like some of the too/over girly stuff. I once hated pink colour so much. At least now I still can accept that colour.
I hate Hello Kitty, I couldn't understand why people can queue up overnight just to buy Hello kitty.
I never had a Barbie doll.
Conclusion is, I like weird stuff.
something like,
DOMO KUN
I think that Domo Kun is extremely cute and funny though..
I wanted to get myself a palm size Domo Kun but I can’t find any in the stores. All are those extremely huge size/ huggable Domo Kun.
Grab from wiki..
Domo, the main character, is described as "a strange creature that hatched from an egg," with a large, sawtoothed mouth that is locked wide open. Domo's favorite food is Japanese-style meat and potato stew, and he has a strong dislike for apples, because of an unexplained mystery in his DNA. Domo can only communicate via producing a low-pitched noise which sounds somewhat like his own name, but other characters appear to understand him. Domo is known to pass gas repeatedly when nervous or upset.
The post that I’m going to write is dedicated to a brave little girl, her beloved mother and her family.
Few days back, there’s a huge picture printed on the front page of the newspaper. A 7 years old disabled child named Ooi Zhao Qian.
A little girl who was born with no arms, as well as having deformities in both legs, spinal cord and the general bone structure. Things that grasped my attention are the endless LOVE shown from her mother and family.
Having a child is not as simple as what most people would have thought. There are a lot of things to plan, to arrange and to carry out. It is not an easy task to have a child or children. And it will definitely be tougher to have a disabled child, whether physically or mentally disabled.
When the baby is young, a mother needs to take good care of her, making sure that her precious baby will be able to live on, day by day.
When the baby becomes a toddler, a mother has to explain why is she different from others.
When her baby goes to school for the first time, a mother has to stand by her side whenever the child got teased or bullied by other normal kids.
When her baby becomes an adult, a mother has to worry whether her baby will be able to find a life partner or even a job.
Some mothers may need to take good care of their disabled children until their children pass away at an old age.
I personally think that this little girl’s mother is very brave and strong hearted . Well, I believe all mothers will do the same thing. I suppose.
She was only 2 years old when her mother started to train her in using her own legs for daily activities. Now, with only 4 toes on her right foot, this little girl is able to write, sweep the floor, use telephone, surf the web and so on.
When she was 5 years old, the little girl’s uncle made her a special table and a wheel chair, which can be controlled using her own legs.
Recently, her aunt made a special school uniform.
I have been thinking, if this little girl wasn’t born in this family. What will happen to her?
Will her mother abandon her?
Will she cry everyday hoping someone to love her?
Will she blame herself for her imperfections?
Will she blame anyone?
In Malaysia, parents have been trying so hard to raise their children to become someone outstanding. To make them competitive, smart, and so forth. Therefore, parents send their children to all kinds of tuition classes, music classes, drawing classes, dancing classes and many more.
Parents love to compare their children with other people’s children. They will scold their children for not being clever enough, not sporty enough, too naughty blah blah blah.
Did they ever realize how fortunate they are to have a healthy child?
It is the parents’ responsibility to take good care of a child.
You are the one who decides to bring your baby to this world, so please do love and cherish your baby.
Accept who he or she is, and shower them with love.
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