when love is gone

Here am I sitting in front of my laptop, listening to ‘You and I both’ by Jason Mraz, texting bf, chatting with friends at MSN..

Multitasking, task where all the girls can perform very well.

Music change to ‘Bad Romance’

Few days back, I received a call from an old friend of mine. It’s feel weird, he never calls me though.. Well, the last time we met was few months ago during Chinese New Year. I knew something was wrong.

We chat for while. Of course with those how are you, how things going on, how’s work, how’s gf..

Walaaa..

He broke up with his girl friend which has been together with for 6 bloody freaking years.

The reason that the girl gave was---- “you are too perfect for me, I can’t match you.”

What a stupid break up reason. You only realized that you can’t match him after all these years?? Please girl, think of a better reason please. Please tell him that you love him no more or you fall for someone else.

Like how my ex told me, it’s not your fault, it’s not my fault, it’s the nature’s fault.. I was begging him to give me a reason and he give me this stupid shit. I am such a dummy.

When love is gone, it hardly comes back. When the person you love loves you back, hold it tight and never let go.

i'm glad that I have you right now. Cheers.

Cheese Cake

Recipe taken from Hsling



材料A:
蛋白 4 个
塔塔粉 1/2 小匙
幼糖 65 克

材料B:
芝士片 3 片
鲜奶 60 克
牛油 60 克
Cream Cheese 60 克
蛋黄 4 个
特幼粉 65 克

1. 芝士片、鲜奶，cream cheese及牛油放入锅内，隔水炖溶，待凉备用。
2. 蛋白及塔塔粉一起打至起泡，分数次加入幼糖打至湿性发泡。
3. 蛋黄倒入芝士糊内拌匀后筛入面粉，继续拌匀。
4. 蛋白分三次倒入芝士糊内，拌匀。（使用塑胶刮刀）
5. 倒入已铺上烤纸的烤盘内，铺平。
6. 放入已预热的烤箱内，150度，隔水烘烤40分钟。
7. 出炉后无需倒扣蛋糕，待蛋糕放凉后才脱模。

Taa daa~~~~

Must I translate into English? This cheesecake is really easy to bake. I assume everyone likes it.. Now I wana try to bake other types of cakes..

Since my friends said my love towards bf has faded.. so gotta do something to make him stay with me forever.. see, his gf knows how to bake already!! my cooking skill level boosting up!!!

love spark

Hanging out with girl friends once in a while seems exciting though. We had great talk and laugh together. But the thing is, hanging out with all single girl friends means the single but unavailable ones will somehow become the target of discussion.

They came to a conclusion that me and RY can be considered as abnormal couple. And thus come to another conclusion that our love has faded.

1. We don’t hold hands when hang out.
2. We don’t really text or call each other, but we talked every night.
3. Basically we have our own life and own bunch of friends.
4. We have totally opposite behaviors.
   

This is how my new friends see my relationship.

I’ve told them that I am considering whether to follow RY to Sabah or Sarawak, well in case he got assign there. They advised me to slow down; I shouldn’t do this as I will have no one there. My entire life will depend on him solely. If anything happen between us, I will stuck at there and no one will help me.

Yeah, new friends are all independent, single, and one just called off her engagement.

I always tease my friends about the 7 years itch, where couples break up after being together for 7 years. I’m couldn’t help but wonder, will that happen to me too? That after being together for 7 years, our relationship will come to an end? That it’s our time to start all over again with someone new instead.

Yes, I love him. But how to keep the spark between us for another 10 or 20 years? I don’t want us end up becoming some other normal couples where we have to fight for money and living. I don’t want us to end up become some sort of family instead of lovers.

All couples have their own way of protecting and managing their relationship. Like some of my friends, female is the dominant one in the relationship. They handle their boyfriend’s stuff ranging from clothing, friends, jobs and even money and time. It’s like the girl friend is becoming their step mother. And guess what, their boy friends like it.

to be continue....

"Confessions Part II"

[Chorus:]
These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I dont know what to do
I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions

[Verse 1]
Now this gon' be the hardest thing I think I ever had to do
Got me talkin' to myself askin' how I'm gon' tell you
'bout that chick on part 1 I told ya'll I was creepin' with, creepin' with
Said she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it
The first thing that came to mind was you
Second thing was how do I know if it's mine and is it true
Third thing was me wishin' that I never did what I did
How I ain't ready for no kid and bye bye to our relationship

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
Sittin here stuck on stupid, tryna figure out
When, what, and how I'mma let this come out of my mouth
Said it ain't gon' be easy
But I need to stop thinkin', contemplatin'
Be a man and get it over with (over with)
I'm ridin' in my whip
Racin' to her place
Talkin' to myself
Preparin' to tell her to her face
She open up the door and didn't want to come near me
I said "one second baby please hear me"

[Chorus]

[Breakdown]
This by far is the hardest thing I think I've ever had to do
To tell you, the woman I love
That I'm having a baby by a woman that I barely even know
I hope you can accept the fact that I'm man enough to tell you this
And hopefully you'll give me another chance
This ain't about my career
This ain't about my life
It's about us
Please

[Chorus]

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I got myself a new pair of sport shoe, running shoe to be exact. Spend a lot and thank god Ry pays half for me. Frankly I’m still not getting use of using his money. Most of the times I insist of paying my own bills, using my hard earn money.

I once read an article that says like this, whoever becomes the main provider in the family, and he or she will become the main decider in that family.

Earning and spending own money is one of the ways to show that I’m independent and useful. I do not want anyone to control my life.

Speaking of sport shoes, this means I am so determine to start going exercise again. Wake up early in the morning, jog at the park, inhaling fresh air in the earliest morning, watching butterflies and listening to birds chirping.

The truth is always the cruelest. I can’t wake up at 6 something.. I drag and drag till 7 something then till 8 something. We skip the jogging plan and went to breakfast directly. Wearing my huge marathon t-shirt, manipulating myself that I just back from jogging.

Pathetic but true!!

Sport shoe is still leaving untouched.

sometimes i realize that i'm crazy

like a kid unwrapping her present

me and my new sport shoe!!!

aww.. i just cut my hair!! with side bang.. i dont like... feels like some kind of "dog bite hair"