Sunday, September 12, 2010

love spark


Hanging out with girl friends once in a while seems exciting though. We had great talk and laugh together. But the thing is, hanging out with all single girl friends means the single but unavailable ones will somehow become the target of discussion.



They came to a conclusion that me and RY can be considered as abnormal couple. And thus come to another conclusion that our love has faded.

  1. We don’t hold hands when hang out.
  2. We don’t really text or call each other, but we talked every night.
  3. Basically we have our own life and own bunch of friends.
  4. We have totally opposite behaviors.

This is how my new friends see my relationship.



I’ve told them that I am considering whether to follow RY to Sabah or Sarawak, well in case he got assign there. They advised me to slow down; I shouldn’t do this as I will have no one there. My entire life will depend on him solely. If anything happen between us, I will stuck at there and no one will help me.



Yeah, new friends are all independent, single, and one just called off her engagement.



I always tease my friends about the 7 years itch, where couples break up after being together for 7 years. I’m couldn’t help but wonder, will that happen to me too? That after being together for 7 years, our relationship will come to an end? That it’s our time to start all over again with someone new instead.



Yes, I love him. But how to keep the spark between us for another 10 or 20 years? I don’t want us end up becoming some other normal couples where we have to fight for money and living. I don’t want us to end up become some sort of family instead of lovers.





All couples have their own way of protecting and managing their relationship. Like some of my friends, female is the dominant one in the relationship. They handle their boyfriend’s stuff ranging from clothing, friends, jobs and even money and time. It’s like the girl friend is becoming their step mother. And guess what, their boy friends like it.


to be continue....




Tuesday, September 7, 2010

"Confessions Part II"




[Chorus:]
These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I dont know what to do
I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions

[Verse 1]
Now this gon' be the hardest thing I think I ever had to do
Got me talkin' to myself askin' how I'm gon' tell you
'bout that chick on part 1 I told ya'll I was creepin' with, creepin' with
Said she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it
The first thing that came to mind was you
Second thing was how do I know if it's mine and is it true
Third thing was me wishin' that I never did what I did
How I ain't ready for no kid and bye bye to our relationship

[Chorus]

[Verse 2]
Sittin here stuck on stupid, tryna figure out
When, what, and how I'mma let this come out of my mouth
Said it ain't gon' be easy
But I need to stop thinkin', contemplatin'
Be a man and get it over with (over with)
I'm ridin' in my whip
Racin' to her place
Talkin' to myself
Preparin' to tell her to her face
She open up the door and didn't want to come near me
I said "one second baby please hear me"

[Chorus]

[Breakdown]
This by far is the hardest thing I think I've ever had to do
To tell you, the woman I love
That I'm having a baby by a woman that I barely even know
I hope you can accept the fact that I'm man enough to tell you this
And hopefully you'll give me another chance
This ain't about my career
This ain't about my life
It's about us
Please

[Chorus]

Monday, September 6, 2010

12345




I got myself a new pair of sport shoe, running shoe to be exact. Spend a lot and thank god Ry pays half for me. Frankly I’m still not getting use of using his money. Most of the times I insist of paying my own bills, using my hard earn money.


I once read an article that says like this, whoever becomes the main provider in the family, and he or she will become the main decider in that family.


Earning and spending own money is one of the ways to show that I’m independent and useful. I do not want anyone to control my life.


Speaking of sport shoes, this means I am so determine to start going exercise again. Wake up early in the morning, jog at the park, inhaling fresh air in the earliest morning, watching butterflies and listening to birds chirping.


The truth is always the cruelest. I can’t wake up at 6 something.. I drag and drag till 7 something then till 8 something. We skip the jogging plan and went to breakfast directly. Wearing my huge marathon t-shirt, manipulating myself that I just back from jogging.


Pathetic but true!!



Sport shoe is still leaving untouched.




sometimes i realize that i'm crazy


like a kid unwrapping her present


me and my new sport shoe!!!



aww.. i just cut my hair!! with side bang.. i dont like... feels like some kind of "dog bite hair"



Monday, August 30, 2010

we never look at each other..

yet, we take funny pictures..


there's a gap between us ....




lovey lovey

Thursday, August 26, 2010

"boring lifeless couple"

"Boring lifeless couple", quoted by RY.

What couples do together during their free time?


Cuddling? Sleep? Plan about their uncertain future?





we went old town which located near my condo..

I watch my pps, he reads his newspaper...

Boring and lifeless eh??

My housemate seems to get a bit shocking when i told her that we are going Old town. Why is that so? couple not suppose to hang in lame Old town??





My housemate said that we look so match together.. I guess its because we both wearing plus size t shirts.. I looked around in the old town, no girl wears like me.. I am so outstanding!!!





Will there be few pairs of eyes staring at us from behind?? wahahha...




We are by the way...

Boring and lifeless couple..




Monday, August 23, 2010

spongebob squarepants

Speaking of Spongebob squarepants, RY kinda sings the song just to make me laugh.



Captain: Are ya ready kids?
Kids: Ai ai Captian
Captain:I cant here u
Kids: Ai ai Captian
Captain: ohhhhhhhhhhh

Captain: Who lives in a pinneapple under the sea?
Kids:SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Absorbent and yellow and porous is he?
Kids:SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: If natical nonsense be something u wish
Kids:SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Them drop on the deck and flop like a fish
Kids:SpongeBob SquarePants!

Captain: Ready?
Both:SpongeBob SquarePants!
Both:SpongeBob SquarePants!
Both:SpongeBob SquarePants!
Both:SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Sponge Bob Square Pants
Captain: ah ha ha ha ha ah ha ha ha


While getting him some sunflowers for his graduation day, I saw the one and only..



Spongebob Squarepants.










Instead of getting those normal cutie bear, Pooh Bear, Squirrel and stuff. Gosh, I hate cute things.. I actually catch my eye on this yellow little Sponge.



I get one of them right away to blend with my cheerful sunflowers.


Flowers will die but Spongebob stays forever!!!



congratulation dear..


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